Today I am joining my friend, Karen Beth, for Tuesday @ Ten.
This link-up, writing from a prompted word or phrase, is one of my fave...be sure to check out the others' posts, and link your own!
Today's word is: DETERMINED
After reading Karen's post about this week's word, I commented to her that I was "determined" to get a post written!
The truth is, I did write it...
Sometime in the middle of the night, when I was unable to sleep, I had the words running through my head! But, I didn't get up and jot them down...
Now, I am starting over!
But, I am determined to write something meaningful...or at least something that makes sense!
Lately I've been feeling a bit..."out-of-sorts".
What does that really mean? I'm not sure; but I just haven't been feeling quite myself. I've been tired; not depressed, but not really feeling like doing anything; a bit sick with coughing and congestion; and just plain "bitchy" (can I say that here??? Sorry! But I'm not sure any other word would work for the way I've been feeling!).
I am not usually that way; or, am I? Actually, I think I am that way to my husband a lot of the time!
I've often said that my husband acts one way with others, and another way with me. According to him, "everybody likes me"; "they all say I'm a great guy".
I always say, "But they don't live with you; and don't really know what kind of guy you are!"
I am determined to change my thought patterns.
I am determined to change my attitude; to change my actions and reactions.
I am determined to have him treat me the same as he does with "others"; to be that guy "everybody likes" when he is with me!
I am determined to not jump to conclusions; to not provoke him to react negatively to me...
I am determined!
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I know that it is not all my fault; the way he acts or speaks to me comes from somewhere within him...either he doesn't understand what I am saying (due to his hearing or even his dementia);
But I know that I can help by speaking louder and more clearly. I know I can help by realizing his inability to follow a story-line or to grasp a situation, and be clearer in responding to him.
It takes two people to communicate properly; but when one is hard-of-hearing and has dementia, the other person needs to compensate for that lack - and that is what I need to do!
I am determined!
Yes, I am determined to be the person I know I am; the one that isn't bitchy and ugly all the time; the one who is positive and happy and joyful...
Because, that is who I am for real - positive and happy and joyful!
And I know that I can do this - with God's help; because, that is the only way I can do it!
This may not be the post that ran through my head early this morning; but this is what I have written!