TGIF! Thank goodness it's Friday!!! And time to join a great group of bloggers for the Five Minute Fridays challenge...on Thursday evening we receive a word and write for five minutes - without thinking about it or any editing. Try it sometime, it really is challenging! Five Minute Friday
So - today's word is "LEAVE" - and here goes my post...
I will never LEAVE you or forsake you...but I want to LEAVE and not have to deal with this anymore. No, I don't want to LEAVE this life or this earth and go home; I know I have already talked about that in my Write 31 series...what I want is to LEAVE and be alone for a while to get my head together as to what it is I need to do; what it is I want to do...I want to walk on the beach and feel the sand beneath my toes and watch the ocean as it moves in and out. I want to lie in the shade of a tree and read a book. I want to sit down and scrapbook all the pictures I can in one day. I want to LEAVE a legacy of photos in books that my children and grandchildren would be proud to share with others. I want to LEAVE this apartment and just drive until I come to a place where I can stop, turn around and return home with a better attitude; a kinder self that will be better able to take care of someone who has lost parts of his memory; someone who depends on me for so much..I want to LEAVE but I will stay...
Friday, October 31, 2014
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Oh, dear friend, I hope you get a chance to leave for a bit and spend time 'taking your own oxygen'! Is there a respite care service in your area that you could tap into (I know some of them are free) so that you could have some time away?
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your concern and suggesting respite care...actually, I don't think we are to that stage yet; I just wrote the words that came to me for this five minute period and the word just made me want to LEAVE and do something for ME...but I know that is selfish and I DO get time away and have FUN and do things that I enjoy. I know that a time will come when I cannot do those things...but when I am home with him, I sometimes get out of patience and really just want to leave...knowing if I did, I'd come back - I need God to give me the patience I need to keep doing what I must do. Thank you for reading and commenting...I will be OK - and will be sure I get that time away!!
DeleteI'm glad to hear that! Sometimes, I'm taken by surprise what pops into my head during a FMF write!
DeleteBarbara, I am stopping by from #FMFparty. My post today at FMF is also about dementia....my Mother's dementia. Her name is Barbara, too. I pray that the Lord will be very close to you as you and your husband journey this path...a difficult, hard-to-understand and accept path. God bless you, Barbara.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Leah...our journey continues and I will continue to write about it. I see changes in the future - and they are uncertain; but with God and my other "Tribe" I will walk that path...thank you for reading my FMF-it's the first time I've done it!
DeleteHoping you get just a little time for yourself.
ReplyDeleteThank you! Planing to do just that!!
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