Friday, October 31, 2014

FMF - LEAVE

TGIF!  Thank goodness it's Friday!!!  And time to join a great group of bloggers for the Five Minute Fridays challenge...on Thursday evening we receive a word and write for five minutes - without thinking about it or any editing.  Try it sometime, it really is challenging! Five Minute Friday

So - today's word is "LEAVE" - and here goes my post...


I will never LEAVE you or forsake you...but I want to LEAVE and not have to deal with this anymore.  No, I don't want to LEAVE this life or this earth and go home; I know I have already talked about that in my Write 31 series...what I want is to LEAVE and be alone for a while to get my head together as to what it is I need to do; what it is I want to do...I want to walk on the beach and feel the sand beneath my toes and watch the ocean as it moves in and out.  I want to lie in the shade of a tree and read a book.  I want to sit down and scrapbook all the pictures I can in one day.  I want to LEAVE a legacy of photos in books that my children and grandchildren would be proud to share with others.  I want to LEAVE this apartment and just drive until I come to a place where I can stop, turn around and return home with a better attitude; a kinder self that will be better able to take care of someone who has lost parts of his memory; someone who depends on me for so much..I want to LEAVE but I will stay...

7 comments:

  1. Oh, dear friend, I hope you get a chance to leave for a bit and spend time 'taking your own oxygen'! Is there a respite care service in your area that you could tap into (I know some of them are free) so that you could have some time away?

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    1. I appreciate your concern and suggesting respite care...actually, I don't think we are to that stage yet; I just wrote the words that came to me for this five minute period and the word just made me want to LEAVE and do something for ME...but I know that is selfish and I DO get time away and have FUN and do things that I enjoy. I know that a time will come when I cannot do those things...but when I am home with him, I sometimes get out of patience and really just want to leave...knowing if I did, I'd come back - I need God to give me the patience I need to keep doing what I must do. Thank you for reading and commenting...I will be OK - and will be sure I get that time away!!

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    2. I'm glad to hear that! Sometimes, I'm taken by surprise what pops into my head during a FMF write!

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  2. Barbara, I am stopping by from #FMFparty. My post today at FMF is also about dementia....my Mother's dementia. Her name is Barbara, too. I pray that the Lord will be very close to you as you and your husband journey this path...a difficult, hard-to-understand and accept path. God bless you, Barbara.

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    1. Thank you, Leah...our journey continues and I will continue to write about it. I see changes in the future - and they are uncertain; but with God and my other "Tribe" I will walk that path...thank you for reading my FMF-it's the first time I've done it!

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  3. Hoping you get just a little time for yourself.

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